I 100% have dyscalculia. And I am depressed about it.

I came across a list of symptoms the other day when I linked to dyscalculia in a separate post.

I didn’t read the list until today and as I said, I am depressed about it. I’m super embarrassed that I suck at math this much, but every single thing on this list has happened to me. Many of the things more than once.

I have bolded things that still happen to me on LITERALLY a daily basis. I’m embarrassed to even admit that I am this dumb, but I’m sharing it in the hopes that someone else out there is also experiencing mathematical emotional turmoil. Thank you.

## Dyscalculia is characterized by difficulties with common arithmetic tasks. These difficulties may include:

- Difficulty reading analog clocks
- Difficulty stating which of two numbers is larger
- Sequencing issues
**Inability to comprehend financial planning or budgeting, sometimes even at a basic level; for example, estimating the cost of the items in a shopping basket or balancing a checkbook**- Inconsistent results in addition, subtraction, multiplication and division
**Visualizing numbers as meaningless or nonsensical symbols**, rather than perceiving them as characters indicating a numerical value (hence the misnomer, “math dyslexia”)- Difficulty with multiplication, subtraction, addition, and division tables, mental arithmetic, etc.
**Problems with differentiating between left and right****A “warped” sense of spatial awareness**, or an understanding of shapes, distance, or volume that seems more like guesswork than actual comprehension- Difficulty with time, directions, recalling schedules, sequences of events, keeping track of time, frequently late or early
- Poor memory (retention and retrieval) of math concepts; may be able to perform math operations one day, but draw a blank the next; may be able to do book work but then fails tests
- Ability to grasp math on a conceptual level, but an inability to put those concepts into practice
- Difficulty recalling the names of numbers, or thinking that certain different numbers “feel” the same (e.g. frequently interchanging the same two numbers for each other when reading or recalling them)
**Difficulty reading musical notation****Difficulty with choreographed dance steps**- Difficulty working backwards in time (e.g. What time to leave if needing to be somewhere at ‘X’ time)
**Having particular difficulty mentally estimating the measurement of an object or distance**(e.g., whether something is 3 or 6 meters (10 or 20 feet) away)- When writing, reading and recalling numbers, mistakes may occur in the areas such as: number additions, substitutions, transpositions, omissions, and reversals
**Inability to grasp and remember mathematical concepts,**rules, formulae, and sequences- Inability to concentrate on mentally intensive tasks
**Mistaken recollection of names, poor name/face retrieval**, may substitute names beginning with same letter.

You guys. Please help.

yea, I am dyslexic, like really badly dyslexic and your’e right. It’s really f***ing embarrassing and the stupid mistakes you dtn’t see (see what I did there) …. on the other side, you can now own this. Neurodiversity is a two sided coin, whilst your visual memory may suck, growing up your mind will and compensated. It’s likely that you will have a lot of empathy, a creative side and intuition. On the other side, who needs maths anyway?

Youβre right, who needs it?! ππ»

You’re not dumb – that’s the FIRST THING YOU NEED TO GET, you are NOT dumb. I home educate my daughter who is totally maths blind, she was assessed a couple of months ago and she has a hugely high IQ. Her numbers blindness has nothing to do with her intelligence (I could have told you that without the assessment, she’s amazing AND totally number blind).

To get to the age you are you have clearly learned coping mechanisms, now is the time to give yourself a break – learn where your weaknesses are from the point of view of a dyscalculic, and find ways around it then accept it. I totally know this is oversimplifying things, but there is nothing wrong with you, you are exactly who you are meant to be, and you are not alone in this maths weirdness!

Thank you! π